I'm BACK!

I'm sooooo sorry. I know I've been MIA from my blog for so long already. Been really busy lately with wor, esp after I took over the Penang account. For the last month I went to Penang for a week, then I went to HK and Shen Zhen for another week of work, and in between I had reservist for a week. Woah! And to top it off, unfortunately, my grandma fell ill and had to be hospitalized. Talk about being busy. There was so much to do, I hardly had enough time to sleep.

So many things happened lately, at home and in office. If I'm going into details, its take a few pages. My life was really thrown into a frenzy and after all that mess, sometimes when I stop to think, I really do not know what the hell I am doing.

Kopi sessions are back for the past week, so are the drinking sessions. And the occassional partying. Not forgetting KTV, plus 2 weddings in the last 2 mths. Congrats to Dennis and Fiona! and Congrats to Kim as well. I had a great time at ya wedding, here's wishing all of you the best to ya marriage. Looking forward to ya babies soon!

And now, allow me some time to announce that I am now a proud owner of the brand new Fujifilm Z33WP! Yippie, I finally got a new camera at SITEX today. The price was ok, got it for $250, plus all the crap extras that they gave, like 2 batteries, a mini tripod, a 8GB SD card, a SD card reader. So I thought its not that bad deal. Specifications wise, its ok. Not fantastic, but passable. But the coolest thing is that there are 5 different colours to choose from (I picked the blue one), and it is water resistant! Which means that I can use it underwater (up to 3 m). The design is also pretty gd, its pretty thin... Totally looks like a fun camera, exactly what I need (I hope, hahahaha). Been thinking of getting a camera for some time, but I have been holding back. Well thought that since next month my mama and papa will be going over to Taiwan for a holiday, so I might as well get the camera now so that they can use it for their trip as well. BUT just as I was standing at the counter waiting and waiting and waiting like some lost dodo in the 21st century, no one entertained to me (of course they attended to me when I was making the payment), but not after I had made payment. Damn it. After waiting for like quite a while, someone finally came out of the room, and went over to talk to the cute sales who was attending to me. So the sales came to me and told me the dark truth - No more stock for the blue camera. Kaoz. So they asked me to choose another colour, there was still black, yellow and green and they will give me an extra battery as a compensation. my first reaction was - "What the hell I need so many batteries for". There wasn't really a good explaination for this from them. So I was looking at the other colours, but I really like the blue one. The black and yellow also looks not bad, but I had this connection with the blue camera, so I really don't want to change my decision. So I told them that I will collect the camera from their shop later that week, and if that is ok with them. So they made arrangements for me to collect it from their shop later in the week, I'll give them a call just before I go over. Darn, waste my time. Oh well, since I'm spending on it already, might as well get one that I like. Luckily Sim Lim is still considered near my office.

Oh well, Just gotta wait. Okok, think this post is long enough already to make up for the past few mths of missing in action, haha. Will try to remember to update as often as possible. =)

Malacca

I'm so sorry, I've been neglecting my bloggie for so long. Haven't been updating much of it for some time. Time for me to brush off some of the cog webs in this blog and post something new here. Well lets start with my trip to Malacca. yes, I just came back from Malacca. It was a company trip, 2 days 1 night. Company trip it is, but we had to pay ourselves lah, haha. Anyway my mum also came along, so it was also semi family trip (you know my condition in office). And we had a blast in Malacca. Its not so much about visiting the places of interest, and all that, but really about nice company to be around with. And we ate, and ate, and ate. Continuously for 2 days, hahaha. It was really a eating trip. We kept eating, my mouth didn't had time to stop and rest, hahaha. Did a bit of shopping, bought a shirt and a cap. It wasn't that cheap, but still not expensive (still cheaper than SG of course). We had great food, tried a sorts of authentic food from Malacca such as Chendol, Nonya food, chicken rice balls etc etc. But ironically, the I think one of the best meals was the 1st lunch we had - vegetarian! It was really good. Walking through Jonker street was also interesting, there was quite a lot to see and buy (erm, more of loads of food to buy. Not much clothing or other stuff that is suitable for me). Those that know me, will know that actually I just went to Malacca not that long ago with cy and gang, and this time it was really different. For one, Jonker street was in full operation (the last time we went on Sunday, Jonker street really only comes to life on Sat night). Another was that this time we took a bus. The last time it was by car. Not that I don't like roadtrips, but its quite tiring to be the one driving. Short distance still ok lah, but driving for 2 hrs is pretty tiring, hahaha.

Okok, tomorrow still have work, better go wash up. Toddles.

Contract

My contract officially ends on Monday, and till now I still have yet to see a new contract. I've actually told Agnes about it, and she was saying that she had already told Felicia about it, and how come I still do not know about it. Come on lah, where got people only give me contract on last day, definately have to give me time to look through the contract and decide whether to sign a not ma. Though we are connected by family relations, but I still need to look at the terms and conditions right.

Last night I was at Lunar with some of my colleagues to celebrate Mad's birthday, as usual we had a blast, and a very drunk night. Haha. Before that I was at Jeremy and Jemi's wedding. It was the first time I went for an outdoor wedding (actually I have been to one at Alkaff [donno how to spell] Mansion, but that was really eons ago). Nice concept, and beautiful deco. But I think there are areas that can be improved a lot. Such as the lighting, some bugs plan (to rid of the bugs), more tables (its the first time I attend to a wedding eating my food at a corner), better wine. But I must admit that for a buffet, the quality of the food was really quite good. The wedding was held at Hort park, it was also the first time I was at Hort park. Nice place, a bit hot at night. Overall I still think that the concept is very nice, but it may not go down well with the older crowd. I mean this is also the first time I went for a wedding that ends before 10. In fact it probably ended as early as a quater after 9. And the whole thing is def very different from the conventional weddings. My bro is going to do this outdoor thingy for his wedding as well. I don't know how he wants to do it, just hope he does a good job. Actually I think he should try to combine the 2. It'll probably be much better. Also he doesn't want to invite too many people, wants to keep it a small affair. But seriously, I just hope he gives the older crowd like my Ah Ma some face. He said that he doesn't want to invite those that are not very close and all that, but there are some people that you may not know, but you just have to invite because they are your grandma's some relative. Aiya, I just hope he gives more thought into this. I don't want this to cause people to talk behind our family's back.

Sales talk

STOP.... and I mean STOP telling me that I'm giving sales talk to you. Because if I can give good sales talk, my sales would be much better than what it is now. If there is one thing that I cannot stand in office is when my boss keep telling me that I'm giving them sales talk. Its like telling them that I am trying to smoke my way through everything. Here I am explaining myself, and there you keep insinuating that I'm bluffing my way through. Its not like I want to tell you the same thing next week, but it really is the case. Fuck man, irritating. And another question I totally hate is what are you going to do to bring up your sales. I mean what can I do, there are only a few ways what, of course I can only keep telling you the same thing. I can only keep visiting my customers, asking if there are anything else I can provide. If they don't give me the PO there is nothing I can do right. This door closed, I look for another door, from other buyers. Of course I also look for new customers as well. But that about all I can do right. Sianz.

Its the end

I'm not really feeling my best this weekend. Having a very bad headache and feeling really groggy the whole day. In office now staring at the computer screen but my head is fading away. Its like Madonna is dancing in my head to the tune of her latest single - celebration. And she doesn't seem to be stopping any time soon. Just reached office, on a Monday... definately need some time to start my engine, so I thought I'll update my very neglected blog, haha. Yes, I know I have not been updating as often as before, forgive me blog.

Times passes by so quicky, in just what seems like a while, I've already graduated from University for more than a year already. I'm already into my second job, and I've been (trying to) climb the corporate ladder for close to a year already. Everything seems to be happening so fast. Initially, you don't feel the speed of time going by, but when you stop to think about it, you will really find that we are getting old really really fast.

Being in my job for slightly more than 6 months. In fact, my contact with this company should be up by this week. I still have no indication of the management's decision to whether they will continue with another contract, or will they give me a permanent job or will they just thank me for my past efforts. Yes I know this is my Uncle's company, and that there should not be any issue with a permanent position. Seriously, a part of me does not want to leave. Mainly because I feel that I have yet to achieve what I can here, and I am very confident that I can contribute much more if given more time. I want to leave on a high, especially so when relationships are involved in this very complicated office. There is also so much for me to learn, there are so many things that I still do not know. And the bes part about this company is that they are all so willing to share their experience with me. But there is also a part of me that seriously hope that he will tell me that maybe its better for me to look for green pastures elsewhere because I might suit other jobs better. A big part of me really wants to leave too. I've played my relationship cards very close to my heart, and sometimes its difficult and very sressful. There are some things that I find difficult to speak up about, For instance, my pay, my contract (as said earlier I have 1 week left on my contract, so far no one has approached me to talk about a new contract, and I really don't know how to open up about this), additional benefits. The extra stress and restrictions is seriously killing me. I can only wait and see what happens now.

Ok, as I'm looking at this screen, I also seeing some stars as well. My mind is in a frenzy, I cannot really think straight, haiz.... still have lessons tonight, and my Jap test is coming up this wed! I'm so dead... Hopefully I'll be able to last through today in my current condition.

$40, 1 medal and a whole body full of pain

Completed my first AHM last Sunday, 21km! Yippie. The things we go through to attain this sense of achievement and pride. Had to pay $40+ for the registration (erm, actually my bro paid for it, I went for it in his place), after the completetion we get this medal to indicate that we made it, and after it all, we are left with smiles, a sense of pride and also a whole body full of pains and aches. Haha.

But I think the most apt way to describe this experience, is that these marathons are like sex. After the first time, you do feel like you want to do it again, and again and again. It is addictive. You want to better your previous score, you want to train for it and make sure you do better next time.

Today I can really feel the aftermath of the entire process. Weak and aching legs, back ache, whole body feeling a little wobbly. Hahaha. But I thin I did pretty decently yesterday. I don't know my exact timing yet, have to wait a few days before we can check our timing online. But it should be roughly 1hr 50mins. Its really inspirational, and I do want to try out another race soon. Will have to resume training soon, but first, let me rest and cultivate my body back to full health. Tired. Think I'm gonna skip my lesson and go back early today. Really too tired to go, even if I went for my lessons, I would not be able to absorb anything at all, no point. Haiz, anothe 10 mins to go.... time goes by, so slowly, time goes by, so slowly....

Monday in Aug

I think I've said this countless times already... Mondays are just not meant for working... sianz. No matter how much you have rested during the weekend, you are still tired on Monday and you just don't feel like starting work on Monday. Totally can feel the Monday Blues in me now. I had a very uneventful weekend. Practically slept through the entire weekend, other than some occassional fun outside, which probably lasted less than 3 hrs, nothing much happened. Boringz.....

Relax.... Enjoy

There is always this thing about chalets. They tend to be super tiring, excessively sleepless, and full of unhealthy food... not to mention the extra smoke from those box of 20s. But this time, it was much more relax. And I'm not complaining, haha. I slept through the chalet, I think I fell asleep at 2, all the way till the next morning. Of course the guys were super noisy (that includes my gal), playing mahjong through the night till about 6. Man, I think I'm getting old, cannot take late nights already. And did I mention about the start of my gym sessions. I started gymming last week, concentrating on my biceps. After working out, my hands were super numb, and I could not straighten out my arms for the next 3 days. So last wek I thought that I will go easy on my arms, and focus on my abs, to train those packs out. OMG, now I've been having the stomach feeling for the last 3 days, fuck lah, too long never gym already. Do a little bit, whole body ache. Haha. I guess age is catching up, and it is catching up real fast....

Eclipse 2009

There is an eclipse going on now in various parts of the world. Was chatting with my supplier in Wuhan, she was telling me that the sky is slowly getting dark now, and total eclipse will be around 9.53. Wow, its like super cool lor.... So right now the sun is looking like a sickle, haha. Wish I was there to witness this, hmmmm.

There are also rumours that this is going to be the end of the world, together with the eclipse will come tsunamis and earthquakes... Well from the looks of things, I'm still going to be around tomorrow, hahaha. I've been telling my baby to bring her float to office and oxygen tank, hahaha. Well she's working on an island, so high risk ma... And I think she's going to kill me for it. lol.

Well back to the eclipse, its said to be the longest eclipse in the 21st century. Okie I shan't go into details of the whole foray, for more information please google online, well for your ease of reference, I've included the wiki link for this eclipse here.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solar_eclipse_of_July_22,_2009

Happy Saturday, Sad Sunday

It was a pretty happy Saturday for me. On Friday night I went to meet an internet friend. We've been chatting online for sometime and thought that we should meet up sometime. So last friday we met to go clubbing. It was pretty cool though we didn't talk too much. I don't really talk well in front of people I'm not familar with, but it was still ok, I guess the loud music in the club and the alcohol really did help to break the ice, haha. Well we had great fun that night. I just hope that he wasn't disappointed when he saw me in real life. I mean on cam and in real life is pretty different. And luckily I didn't have training this Saturday, so the late night wasn't a big problem.

After I woke up on Saturday, I on my lappie and it gave me really good news. I got a new order from my customer. A 7k order!!! Wahaha.... Finally some results of my customer visits. Although my overall result is still way behind my other colleagues, but some of it is coming back, it does give me some motivation to work harder to hit that darn target of mine. Haiz, another 35k more to go, only less than 2 weeks. Sianz....

Then when I say sad Sunday, I mean its because its Sunday.... Which means there is work tomorrow, damn it. There goes another weekend. Will have to be in JB tomorrow for customer visit.

New order!!!!

Yeah!!! I just go some new orders this week. And its the result of my hard sell and working with customer to secure he orders and allocation. So happy, hopefully I can secure a few more of such deals to push up my sales, haha. Good start, though its still not enough to hit my target this month. Kambatte ne.

Maybe its better to keep things the way they were

Sometimes I am wondering, maybe it would be better if we keep things as they were and no try to move things onto the next level. Maybe I am not suitable to be with someone. And maybe I should just stay single all my life.

Those who know me well enough, do know that I am sort of together with a girl now, well is complicated. Till not she doesn't want to commit to the relationship, after like 3-4 mths. Initially, the first time I asked her was through sms (yes, I know its not the most romantic way), but actually it was not really asking her to be my girlfriend, that was more of asking if I stood a chance. So came along the official sms (hahaha), to ask her, and she said no. Because she said that sms is insincere, and that she was unsure about me and all. Ok, point taken. So we continue our ambigious relationship for awhile more, with all my friends asking if we are actually 'together'. A lot of times I am lost for words to tell them, I can only say 'its complicated'. Well its been complicated for so long now, so last week when we met I asked her again, it was more romantic this time, we were at West Coast Beach at night, sitting on the benches and I asked her again to be my girlfriend. And she said 'no' again. Ok, all confused again we went home after that. The next day she sms me to tell me,"I said no not because I don't like you, I don't want you to think that I am still choosing between others, in case you think that way. But I am not sure what kind of bf you will be. Sometimes you can mia during the weekdays, and only exist on the weekends. I don't want to choose so long and in the end choose someone who don't care for me" (something along that line, I can't rem the exact words). Ok, now then... I know that I don'y meet her every other day, but thats because I have a very tight schedule during the weekdays. I have Jap classes on Mondays and Wednesdays nights. Tuesday evenings are for my jogging session (by the way, I have asked her if she wants to join me, and I ca drive her back afterwards, she don't want). Thursday night is the only other night that is free, which I leave for my grandma most of the time, because sometimes I really don't have time to go down to visit her, so at least I still have a day for her. So Fridays and Saturdays are kept for her, but Saturday nights are sometimes also friends drinking days, but I do bring her along. Sunday is generally family day, either that or its JB day. Neither do I sms her everyday, or call her everyday. But seriously people who know me, do know that I do not like to call other people (I love receiving calls though). That is why, all the while my phone bill always shows my incoming more than 10x my outgoing. Thats the way I am, its a habit difficult to change. To once in a while sms someone to ask them what they are doing, or just to say I miss you. This is just not my style. Ok, nevermind, for the sake of those who like this I told myself that I will send her some sms every now and then. So that she will know that I am available during the weekdays as well. And to make my presence felt and let her know that I care for her. So while I was waiting for my class to start on Monday night, I thought that I would sms her to ask her how's her day, whether she has reached home already and all that. And her reply,"Busy day, genuinely busy. R u trying hard not to appear mia huh? lol". Now, when I saw this sms I was actually a little pissed. But being genetleman, I let it go and continued to reply her sms jokingly. So the next day I thought that I will not sms her, else later she thinks that I am trying again. But in the end I still gave in. After my jog, I sms her to ask her if she's at home, and to tell her that I had to meet my supplier afterwards. And she replied:"Yup, I just reached home. My poor darling still have to collect stuff, but I'm happy when you have to do extra stuff... lol.. p/s: my dear is in the 2nd day of trying hard not to appear mia to me." Okie, I really couldn't care less, I just replied that I had to take some samples to pass to customer the next day. Didn't even bother to explain anything. I mean, come on lah, sometimes its pretty irritating to see that your efforts are not recognised whether its at work or for other stuff. I can take sarcasm , we can suan each other. But we should know when we are serious when we are not. So is she implying that my sms are too fake, don't sound sincere enough.

So sometimes I really don't know what I should do, should I continue or just let go. When I don't sms or call, she says that I mia from her life, and when I do, she says that the sms are very fake. So what do you want. We have been in this complicated relationship for 3-4 mths and I think its about time to draw up a fullstop. Whether or not we should continue with this. I don't see a point if we keep delaying the whole issue. Is she unsure of me or is she unsure of herself, I don't know. Haiz, going by my past practices (on other issues), at most I will give it another shot, if after doing everything and there doesn't seem to be light at the end of the tunnel, then just drop, and get on with life.

Sex for a week boost sperm quality

I cam across this pretty interesting article recently. And it tells us all, esp those daddy wannabes to have sex everyday 1 week before she ovulates (or at least jerk off every now and then for that week) because it has been noticed that this improves the quality of the sperm! Wow, what a discovery, hahaha. Well here's the article from yahoo:

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090630/tts-health-fertility-sex-c1b2fc3.html

PARIS (AFP) - - Men seeking to become a dad should have sex each day, or ejaculate daily, for a week before their partner ovulates in order to maximise sperm quality, according to a study presented on Tuesday.

Australian fertility specialist David Greening recruited 118 men whose sperm had a higher-than-normal level of DNA damage.

Before the test, on average 34 percent of the group's sperm was rated as damaged, meaning that it was classified as "poor" in quality. Among individuals, this ranged from 15 percent to 98 percent.

The men were asked to ejaculate daily for seven days, but were not given any drugs or told to make any changes to lifestyle.

After seven days, their sperm was examined again.

The average of damaged sperm fell to 26 percent, placing it in the category of "fair" in quality.

Fourth-fifths of the men saw an increase in sperm quality, and many of them moved into the "good" range and out of the "poor" or "fair" categories.

However, one-fifth saw a decline in sperm quality.

Greening, an obstetrician and endrocrinologist at Sydney IVF, an Australian company that carries out assisted reproduction, said the improvements were "substantial and statistically highly significant."

Daily ejaculation not only boosted sperm quality for most of the men, it also helped sperm motility -- another big factor in successful fertilisation -- even though volumes of semen declined, he said.

Greening presented his findings at a conference in Amsterdam of the European Society of Human Reproduction and Embryology (ESHRE), which provided details in a press release.

The research did not investigate whether the improvement in sperm quality led to better pregnancy rates. But previous work has shown that sperm that is less damaged and more mobile has a better chance of leading to a healthy baby.

"These results may mean that men player a greater role in fertility than previously suspected, and that ejaculatory frequency is important for improving sperm quality," said Greening.

Why this is so is unclear.

Greening said he suspected that the longer sperm stays in the testicular ducts, the greater its exposure to rogue oxygen molecules that damage cells.

His advice to couples would be to have sex, or to ejaculate, daily in the runup to ovulation or to sperm donation for in-vitro fertilisation (IVF).

"The optimal number of days of ejaculation might be more or less seven days, but a week seems manageable and favourable," he said.

"It seems safe to conclude that couples with relatively normal semen parameters should have sex daily for up to a week before ovulation date."

Useful or Useless

After a week of H1N1 wannabe scare, I'm now fully back to work, erm actually I've already returned to work last Friday. And my boss was so nice to me throughout this tough period that I was going through. In my sickness, pain and agnoy, my boss helped to bring my laptop to my home so that I can work from home when I was on MC, now isn't that nice. And when I returned on Friday, the first thing that my boss told me was a warm welcome back message," Just to let you know, Kelvin has hit 50k this month already." Ah, it really made me feel so good to return to work doesn't it.

And today, all I wanted to do was to ask her about some stuff about work and she had to remind me again that I have to do everything as a sales. And that I must have no more excuses because what we can recognise is results, and results only. Wow, feel the love.

From the bottom of my heart, I really hate this feeling. I mean I'm not trying to find excuses for having low sales. But I just don't like the idea that all the ground work that I am doing is not being recognised. I know that at the end of the day we need to deliver, but to me, that is no reason to undermine the work that I have done so far. I don't know what made her think that the CS is doing enough for her job now, because it seems to me that she is not that great in her work, especially so when she's the head of the CS team. During meetings, she can hardly speak up, or explain the work flow of what her team needs to be doing. And after being in this company for so much longer than I have, she doesn't have the contacts or relationships to the customers that she is handling at all. Come on, she's doing customer service! And now you are telling me that these are the information that I should have, and that its ok if CS don't know, but sales MUST know. I don't understand why a customer service officer, a person who is supposed to be in constant contact with the customer as much as the sales personal, to provide service to the customer, can don't know the customer's contact details, and you can still tell me its perfectly fine, but as a sales I cannot don't know, so even if the CS tell you that she doesn't know, you have to find out through the one thousand and one ways. But seriously, why didn't the CS find out about these nitty gritty details earlier?!? So now I'm the only one being labelled as not doing enough for my job.

As I've said, I can def feel the love.

Formula Drift Singapore

For these 2 days I am part of the Formula Drift Singapore, wahahaha. I got free tix to enter the place from Alvin because his company is one of the sponsors of the event and that they have a booth selling some car wash stuff, so I'm there on the pretext as an employee, but actually taking the chance to watch the the drift, hahaha. But I was doing my job ok, I did sell the stuff. Yesterday was super hot, I almost couldn't take it, so today I'm taking precautions, I've bought drinks and I've prepared ice for the drinks, haha. Now I'm all ready to go, waiting for Alvin to come and fetch me. That basket told me he'll be here at 8, well look at the time now... Ass made me wake up so early.

H1N1

Another craze that has been going on in this sunny island is H1N1. At first there wasn't any cases of it, and when it starts, the whole thing is like a beast let loose from its cages. The number of cases has ballooned to around 700 already! And poor me, today I'm down with flu. And the funny thing is, when I was Q-ing at the clinic, I was reading the H1N1 flyer... and to my horror, I got all the symptoms of the virus (other than fever). I was like 'Shit'! So at the clinic, all those with these symptoms are to wear the face mask and walk a separate corner to the 2nd level for a different section that is opened specially for people like us. Haha... So now, I'm down with flu, plus I get 3 days of MC. When I told my colleagues, their first reaction is, "WHAT!!! 3 days, what did you tell the doctor". I wasn't trying to get anything that long myself. In fact I was only expecting a 1 day MC and I'll be back tomorrow, but now I have 3. And what worries me most is that I think I do not have medical leave from office, so this MC will cut into my annual leave, fuck man. If its really the case, then it sucks big time man.

Rabbids: Transformer

With all the Transformer 2: The revenge of the fallen craze going on I thought it will be most apt to put this up on my dear blog. Hahaha.... It a trailer of one of my favorite games combined with the Transformers. Actually this has been done quite some time ago, its actually a trailer for Ravin Rabbids 2. Now there already part 3 and 4 is coming up soon. But I still enjoyed this trailer very much though.

Saturday bluez

It just sucks when you find out that you have to be in office on a Saturday. Yup, that me now, stuck in office for I-don't-know-what. My customers are not around, I don't have many outstanding issues. Haiz. Well all I know is that there is a meeting in a few minutes. After that its back home again. K k, bell ringing... time for meeting....

Kelong Acheh

I'm back from my Kelong trip. The place was called Kelong Acheh. Quite a good experience, the place was super relaxed, super tranquil, and super nostalgic. And all that together with crap living quaters (that resembles olden living space of my ancestors), creepy toilets with flushes that doesn't work and tons of mozzies beating on you every now and then... but these are the things that really bring us back to the kampong days. Haha.

It was really relaxed because there wasn't much to do, everyday we wake up to eat, fish and play mahjong. And thats all that we did for 3 days. Fishing was really fun, because it was really quite easy to get fishes, only that the fishes that we caught were really small. The biggest catch that I got was probably just 3-4 inches long. The really small ones are only about 1 inch long. Yeah I know its really pathetic. But still its better than not catching anything at all. Well I caught like 20+ of these small fishes. Most of them were released back to the sea, because it was really cruel to let them die for nothing. And fishing can be a really really cruel sport. Especially when the hook gets in the eyes of the fish, when you have to tug the hook to get it out of its eyes and mouth and gills, ahhhhh. The thought was really gruelsome. Can you imagine that on a human, ouch!

We had also arranged for a day at the beach on one of those deserted islands, we had loads of games there. And also specially arranged for BBQ on the last night on the Kelong, so it was really really good. Seafood was super fresh, sotong was everywhere (can you imagine that its could just be the same sotong that we use to feed the fishes, haha, I just hope its not from the same box). The last day at the Kelong, we spotted a big fish just beneath the Kelong, so everyone started to think of ways and means to get the fish out. Ultimately, the malay family got the net and climbed down the Kelong and just scoped the fish out, hahaha... so much for fishing.... hahahaha.... When we asked the person, he was saying that its the Elephant fish or something like that... It was really big, and super fat, probably bigger than my lappie. So that really helped to end our trip with a bang, hahaha. Overall I really had a great time with my family, I always like these family gathering stuff, its really nice to get together once in a while. Family is for life, we must treasure their presence... Hmmm come to think of it, its been a while since I visited my grandma, maybe I'll try to go down to visit her this weekend. Oh yah, I do have a few photos taken at the Kelong, too lazy to upload now, another time k. =)

June Babies

Just celebrated Stanley's Birthday last week. We went over to a high class rest at Craig St for dinner at some Italian rest called Pasta Bravo. So you see, we are now into the fine dining era, haha. Well I just realised that there are quite a few June babies among the people I know. My bro and Mum are all June babies, then there's Stanley, Marvin and Johnathan. There are probably more, just that I can't remember at the moment. Well anyway back to Pasta Brava, the place was really good. The ambience was excellent and the food was pretty good. I had the squid ink pasta, I swear that it really taste much better than it looks. When it came, it didn't look that appitising, it was like all black. You seriously cannot differentiate between the spag and the prawns, but put the spag into your mouth and you are in heaven, hahaha. The deserts were heavenly, they had really good tiramisu, I had this choc cake, it was really really really good. The cake was warm and when you cut into the cake, the choc just flows out of the cake. Oh man, that was really good. The portions didn't look like alot, but it was really filling.

www.pastabrava.com.sg

Another celebration was of course with my family, I can't remember if I've blogged about it already, but I thought I'll just briefly blog about that super filling experience. I treated my family to Sakura international buffet at Downtown East. The buffet spread was actually pretty good, in that small area there was quite a lot of food. The quality of the food was passable, it wasn't great food, but it was still above average. Had a great time that night muching down all the food. I felt so guilty the next day because I was so stuffed that I did not even feel hungry at all the next day.

The famous bird drawing by who else - Mr Van Goh (aka Goh CY). One of the most interesting part of the rest is that they provide everyone with chalks and you are free to draw on the table (which is covered with paper). So when you enter the rest, you can actually some of the drawings that the customers had left behind hanging on the walls, pretty cool huh!

Targets

I now have less than 2 weeks to move my sales up to meet this month's target. I have absolutely no idea how I'm gonna do it. Hopefully the people I meet will help. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh

Unlimited wants

There are so many things that I want in my life, but with limited resources and capability its really gonna be real difficult to achieve all of them. Lets not even talk about all of them, it is already super difficult to realise 70% of them. I know I am materialistic, I know there are a number of wants that are not really required, I know that some of these wants are totally useless, but thats life, and thats what makes life so interesting...

I want more money!!! My pay is just far too low

I want a car

I want a house

I want to buy new clothes

I want a new bag

I want less stress

I want to do well in my work

I want more sleep

I want to be in a job that I really really like

I want to open my own company/shop

I want to travel

I want to master Japanese

I want to improve my singing

I want learn things fast

I want to lead a happy and fulfilling life

I want to be able to make the people around me happy

I want to be able to provide for my family

I want to spend more time with my family

and the list just keeps going on and on and on...
When will I be able to achieve all of them

Monday blues

You know the dreading feeling of dragging yourself to work every monday, and even in office your engine don't seem to be starting fast enough, well there is a term for this and its commonly known as Monday blues. This is a very normal feeling, there is absolutely nothing wrong with having this feeling because most, if not all, people will suffer from it at some point of time in their career.

But having said that, the situation gets serious when you dread going to work on Monday, and Tuesday, and Wednesday, and Thursday and Friday as well. You feel totally stressed out and can't wait for the next big holiday, only to realise that you are already out of school, and there is no such thing as a big break anymore. Goodbye to month long June holidays, farewell to frosty more-than-30-days December breaks; and hello to short weekend breaks and occasional long weekends. Now, this is not healthy. Because it is a tell tale sign that you don't really like what you are doing. You have to pull out all the energy in you at work and the only time when you are energetic is after work. You have so many deallines and targets to meet but you have totally no idea how to achieve them and you feel as lost as the survivors in the hit drama 'Lost' and as helpless as a naked man stranded on some pacific island waiting to be part of some ritual before being eaten raw by the tribal carnivores.

And that is exactly how I am feeling now. I am totally lost at work, I have no idea what I can do, and I am feeling pretty stressed out. This is all deep inside me, on the outside I may seem all happy-go-lucky, but I'm really feeling all fucked up inside. And the fact that I'm working for my uncle really hammers the nail onto the coffin. I've said this before, that I don't like working for my relative and this is the exact reason why. I know that I will have this kind of pressure to do extra well in my job, and I really cannot allow any room for failure. And now that I've hit some stones along the way, and I don't see success any where near, it seems to me that I am becoming a liability in office. And I hate that. Already I hate to be a liability in any office, and its much worse when the office belongs to someone so close to you. I've been told that I am still some distance from my target this month, but I don't know what I can do to push up the sales. I mean I can aproach my customers to talk to them about the product and hope they will buy stuff. I can't possibly put them at knief point and force them to buy correct? And the worst part of it are all the issues that come with the sales. Urgent orders, order cancellations, earlier lead time, some of the time line that they give us are simply impossible to meet. Just this morning, my CS told me to leave the commitment of delivery to her because I gave an earlier date of delivery, and she told me that we will need to rush out the part and we should have buffered another week instead. Aiya, I already buffer 1 week already. And anyway its only 1 reel of good, how long do you want to take to check the part. Customer needs the part urgently, there is no reason why I can't expedite the part to them. And then it was the target news. My supervisor told me that for this month my sales is only $15k so far, and she wants me to hit at least 50k at the end of the month. And before I can even sit down to think of how I can achieve this target, news number 3 comes in when another colleague comes over to ask me why I am sitting on a case. Because the customer needs the part urgently we have to try to pull in for them, and also because she had helped to secure this deal for me. In fact she did everything for me in the deal, and all I needed to do was to followup. So I was told off by her becuase she thinks that I am sitting on the case and not doing anything. But I have so much on my mind. Arghhhh..... I really need some time out, and sometimes I am crying inside of me. The body wants to continue but the soul is weak, very very weak now. Oh god, please give me some indication of what I should do. Haiz.

Superstar

Last weekend was my debut concert at Kovan Heartland mall. Its the first time I sang on stage in front of sooooo many people. OMG. I was realy nervous. When I started the song, I fumbled a little before picking up the rest of the song. I'm supposed to be on the wait list, but I doubt I'll make it through lah. I got 1 green and 3 orange cards, so that means that I have wait. WH who asked me to join was telling me that he was so disappointed in me because I was so much better when we went KTV and that I was far from my usual standard. Haha. It was really pretty scary you know. But I must say that it was really fun, no regrets. If there's another chance I might just do this all over again. Though the nerves were really terrible. Hahaha. I was so worried that I might forget the lyrics. Well good luck all those who made it thorough, work hard and don't let me catch up with you, wahahaha.

Busy Bee

Been really busy these days. I have so much on my mind, I have so much to do, there is hardly any time to take a break. I find that I really have some problems with time management and organization. My work is in a mess and I have tons of stuff uncleared. What the fuck am I gonna do!!!

I just went through my email today to write down everything that I still have to do, and everything that is still pending, and oh my god, I filled an entire page of my notebook. Haiz, I really need to organize myself or I will really fail in my job. Right now everything is half done, so I must really try to clear as much as possible. But in office I usually have this mental block that prevents me from achieving the fullest of my time. It is always till near the end of the day that I get most effective, and most of the work done. And at that time, I will feel the press of time and start to worry about not finishing my work. I'm like so fucked now.

Buck up bitch!

林峰 泳儿 - 明天以后

I have been looking for this song, finally found out the name of the song. Yippie! This is a really great song man... Hope you'll enjoy it as much myself. Its by Lin Feng and Yong Er. Lin Feng has quite a few nice songs in his album, think I need to do some research on his songs, hee.

Interesting weekend

Had a very interesting weekend this week. First up was saturday, I went our with Dodo, we were at one of the latest malls in SG, Iluma, checking out the place. Was walking around and to my surprise I saw one of my long lost friend. Walking towards me was Ben Lee. I haven't saw him in ages. So I said hi and all that, and he was saying," hey, you remember Jing Cheng and Daniel". Omg....!!!! I haven't seen them in like 10 years!!! They are like my secondary 2 classmates! Jing Cheng and Ben are even my primary schoolmates. Hahahaha. I always love to see some of my ex-classmates, it was really good to see everyone and know that they are doing well now. I see Ben in TV and mags sometimes so it wasn't too big a surprise, but the other 2, I really haven't met them in the past 10 years at all.... Jing Cheng remembered my name but of course he could not remember my looks, because of the huge change in me, hahaha. Daniel totally forgotten about me... wahaha. It was a big surprise for me, I'm sure its the same for them as well.

And today I went to TM to show my support for WH. He had a performance for the Sing '09 Competition. Had to stand there for 2 hrs + just to catch his 2 songs. After that we went to KTV, and he kept physco-ing me to join the competition that he is part of the organisating committee, Kovan Superstar 09. The second edition of the competition. So after much pursuasion, I finally agreed to join the competition, which is next saturday! Hahaha. Aiya, just join for fun lah, I don't think I'll make it anyway. See how it goes. The things I do to show my support, haha. He had actually asked my to join him in the first season previously and even for the Sing '09. But time didn't allow, so I rejected him. After so many rejections, I finally agreed. Well, I'll have to memorise the lyrics this week. I don't mind getting out in the first round, but I don't to make a fool of myself in public, so gotta make a bit of prepration, haha. Good luck!....

How to look busy at work.

I just found this webby online, I think that its pretty interesting. What's said on the webby is also true, sometimes it not a matter of how hardworking you are, or how efficient you are, but how busy you seem to be. This is especially true for big organisations. And its funny that I'm writing this in office now, haha... well take this with a pinch of salt and think for yourself.

How to Look Busy at Work Without Really Working

If you're getting paid to do something, you should do it, and do it well. But is it always that simple? What if you have a vague job description, a haphazard workload, and a very bad boss who is only content when you look busy, but not if you're super efficient? Sad to say, but sometimes working at your maximum potential is punished. This happens a lot in larger organizations and retail.
Let's say you and a co-worker must each enter the data from 100 files, or shelve 100 books. You hustle and finish an hour earlier than your co-worker, and there's not much else to do. Your boss or manager walks by, expresses displeasure at the fact that you're not doing anything, and assigns you to an unpleasant, and really unnecessary task because they don't like seeing you relax (even though you earned it by finishing your assignment faster, right?). What do you do? Quit? File a complaint? Or slow down? These instructions are here for if you decide to reward your own efficiency by using that extra time you earned for R&R--without your boss noticing.
(Note that if you follow these steps without actually being more efficient than your co-workers, you'll fall behind on your work and give your employer a reason to fire you.)


Steps
Know what the standards are. At the end of the day, you still have to meet those standards if you want to keep your job. The main thing you should know is how much time your manager or boss expects you to spend on a particular project or assignment. Spend that amount of time on it--no more, no less (unless, of course, efficiency is actually rewarded in your position, not punished). If, for example, your boss expects you to spend 40 minutes on a task (because that's how long it takes most people) but you know you can get it done in 20 minutes, you should be able to sprinkle another 20 minutes of "fun time" in (broken up into 3-5 minute intervals) and still get the job done in 40 minutes.

Create the illusion of furious activity whenever possible. Never have a clean desk. Fill your work area with several projects that you are in the process of doing (or not doing, as the case may be). Cover your desk with open binders, highlighted reports, and sticky notes all over the place—make your workspace look like a war zone. Remember to keep your wastebasket full, too, preferably with work-related debris. A good boss will see right through this, but your mean boss will be content to see you look busy (because it makes them look like a good manager).

Ask a lot of questions. Think up complex questions about tasks you have to do and ask them of your boss or coworkers. Ask questions frequently enough and everyone will think you’re really wrapped up in whatever task you're asking about. Be careful what questions you ask, though: you don’t want to sound incompetent.

Open several of the applications you normally use for work and have them visible on your computer’s desktop. The applications, of course, vary depending on the nature of your work. For example, if your task is data entry, you should have one or more databases up and running.

Be alert. Not working is like playing a sport or game. You’ve got to always be on your toes and ready for anything. Try to anticipate your opponent’s next move — for instance, does your boss always stop by at certain times? — and pay attention to clues (if you hear footsteps approaching, a chair creaking, or a flourish of activity nearby, it could mean trouble).

Watch out for Big Brother. Most large companies now monitor their employees’ computer usage. Learn about your company’s policies on internet usage, and learn about their monitoring efforts (it helps to make friends with someone in the IT department). If you can’t run afoul of the company’s policies without making sure you won’t get caught, don’t risk it.

On the frontline, there are free programs you can install, called "virtual desktops", that will allow you to have two active desktops on your computer (one for work, one for play) that you can switch between at the touch of a key when you hear the pitter-patter of supervisory feet.

You can also defeat this sort of monitoring by positioning your computer in such a way as to block someone else’s view of the screen (blame the unusual positioning on glare or ergonomics, if you need to explain it).

Sneakier IT personnel, who monitor usage on the backend, are harder to fool. Use proxies to surf the web, or use cached Google pages of a website instead of going directly to the site. There are also a variety of programs you can get (many for free) specifically designed to help you avoid detection. Search for them on the internet.

When surfing the web, even with a proxy or cached pages, never delete parts of your history. Most IT loggers will see the sites deleted, and even if the logger logs every site visited, the techie will most likely not look meticulously at every site viewed. It just makes you look suspicious.

Visit friends in different departments, leaving your workspace very "busy" looking. However, make sure that you have a work-related topic to initiate the conversation and return to if a supervisor walks by. For instance, tell the person next to you that you are going to double check something with someone from a different department. What you're really doing is providing yourself with an excuse if your boss wonders where you were for a little while. "Oh, didn't tell you? I wanted to double check and make sure both of our departments were on the same page about the new ad campaign, I know it's an important issue and I would hate to have any mix-ups."

Drink lots of water. Not only is water good for your health and can combat certain types of cancer, it makes you have to use the bathroom a lot. Bathroom trips can take up a lot of time and are a legitimate way to waste time while still looking busy.

Make a decoy screen. For a good catch-all, open a couple programs that you use daily. Make sure that all are visible and fill up your screen so you look busy. Then, take a screen shot using the "Print Scrn" button, open MS Paint, paste the image in, then save and set that image as your desktop background. You may also want to hide most of your desktop icons, as this could be a dead giveaway. Even if your computer is on the desktop, it'll look as if you are deep into work! Here's another decoy: Next time you install a program, take a screenshot with the "installing" window. Make it your wallpaper when you need to leave the office so passers-by will think you’re just waiting for the installation to finish.

Always, always carry a backup prop. If you’re going to be away from your desk doing something other than work, carry a document you might have been reading with you. It's best if it's a "long term project" that you can convincingly say you were finally getting to.

Tips
Keep it simple. If you're called on your whereabouts, have a nearly-true, simple, work-related answer ready for any situation.

The more time you spend typing, the busier you look. But, control your typing speed. Fast typing usually denotes email writing. Report writing or other work-related typing requires reflection and much more care; unless you are a professional typist.

If you're in a job that requires you to make a quota of phone calls per day/week/month, call up your bank or a customer service line and just let them put you on hold. Sometimes you can get up to 20 minutes of hold time before you get to speak to someone, at which point you simply hang up. You're eating up your time, and on the computer that tracks call time, it will appear as though you're busy pushing clients to buy. But this probably won’t work when your calls are monitored.

Windows+M/Windows+D is the shortcut to show the desktop instantly. Use this quickly to hide whatever it was that you shouldn't have been doing while giving the impression that you're buried in work.

Open several applications that cover your desktop. Depending on your job, these can include Outlook, Excel, or some type of online program. Using Alt+Tab will allow you to switch from window to window, so you can be surfing the web one minute and appear to be working on some data entry the next.

In a less technical field (e.g. retail) you can get away with a lot if you just look intense and walk fast, especially if you have that back-up prop. When you look like you have an urgent mission, it's unlikely a boss will stop you to ask what you're really doing.

Disable your screensaver, or set the timeout for a really long time, so that it isn't so obvious that you haven't been at your desk for a while.

Warnings
Never brag about how you cut corners at work to other people—they may be interviewing at your company soon or know someone there.

These tips work best if used sparingly. If you end up getting little or no work done, you’re bound to get caught at some point. Even if you don’t get caught, you’ll have nothing to show for the time you've spent at the office. Use these techniques just to break up the day and make it go by faster, but then get back to work or risk losing your job.

Stay away from doing external paying work on company time. Sure, it seems like a great idea to work on your side job while you’ve got some time to kill at your main job, but it’s a bad idea. If you’re caught, you’ll almost certainly be fired, and in some jurisdictions your company can sue you for your wages and damages.

If you do decide to download programs to help you not get caught, make sure you do it while your computer's not being spied on. Some office networks have a program installed that allows an administrator to view live screenshots of all of the monitors on a network.

You may be inclined to disable your screen saver to leave the impression that you haven't been away for too long, however, disabling your screen saver gives other employees easy access to your machine. If someone accesses your computer, you will be held responsible for the actions performed on your computer because someone else will essentially have access to your accounts.

http://www.wikihow.com/Look-Busy-at-Work-Without-Really-Working

Bleach：ヒート・ザ・ソウル6

The next installation of Bleach PSP game is out!!!! Bleach: Heat the soul 6 is the next addition to the Bleach: Heat the Soul series. Before this I also tried out Bleach: Soul Carnival, that game was really cute, but I guess my limited Japanese didn't help to make the game more fun than it could have been. The thing about the Heat the Soul series is that is a battle kind of game, so even with limited Japanese, it didn't spoil much of the fun out of the game... I'm like totally in love with this game now. There are more characters, the game play is a little different. More scenerios, and so much more fun. Ok, its also because I love the Bleach anime, so I really enjoy the game much more. I'm now playing the story mode to open more characters, hopefully I will be able to open up all of 'em.

Britian Got Talent

I just have to write about this, since I've started with it. Susan Boyle did not win the show. Sadz. Because of her rapid rise in popularity after her first performance, some people out there were out to put her down. And thats what happened. In the end, she came in second to a dance group despite delivering another solid and absolutely stunning performance, singing her first song again - I dreamed a dream. Well good luck to her, and all the best in the future. To me, her performance that night totally blew me away and it totally silenced her critics. Kudos. Keep up the good work.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7fS4v5_T5PA

Flying away

Ijo is such an ass... He broke up with his boo, and now he's making me comment on his facebook status to make his ex sad about losing him. BITCH. Hahahaha. And the best part is, he's making all his friends comment on his FB status, wat the hell... If he's in front of me I'll just slap his face... hahaha. Now more and more of his friends are commenting on his FB status, so that his boo will think that he's run away from home and will be worried about him, what an ass... BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday Bro

A belated posting for my dearest bro. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! Yup, it was my bro's birthday on Monday, he's a 1st of June baby 28 years ago... hahaha... I am planning to treat him to dinner, but he wasn't free last week, and he's working this weekend. So we have to postphone the dinner to next week. Decided that it will be in conjunction with my mum's birthday, so I save on one dinner, hahaha. Well in case I'm late again, let me first say HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! Love ya, muack!

Exams

After almost a year, I had to take exams again... ahhhhhhhh. Well this time its my Japanese language exam. Time is passing so fast, I have already got to the end of my Jap class for this semester. All I can say is - die liao... hahaha. Well the paper wasn't difficult. In fact it was actually pretty easy to do, if I had the time to really study and memorise my forms, I shouldn't have any problems sailing through the paper. But thats the problem, I don't have time. I cannot remember all my forms. I even had to take 1/2 day urgent leave this morning to study for the paper because I haven't finished. Well its a 3 week break now, the next level will only begin at the end of June. Haven't signed up though, I forgot to bring my cash today. Will probably do it tomorrow.

Dear Diary

As my Japanese class comes close to an end (there's a test next week and I am totally not prepared), we had a very interesting homework this week. And that is to write a diary entry, totally in Japanese. My first reaction was,"What the fuck!" How the hell am I going to write out a paragraph of Japanese sentences. Already to just write one sentence is quite a challenge for me. But I still manged to write out an entry, filled will primary one Japanese sentences. Haha. Well big problem is that the language I used in my diary was too formal and polite. Usually people arn't that polite when writing diaries. Well I will still give myself a pat on my back and say Good Effort. Hahaha.... To share my entry with everyone, anyone who actually understands Japanese, just shut the fuck up so that those who don't know will actually think that I'm super duper zai.... muahahaha....

日記　５月２６日　火曜日

今朝８時におきました。遅いから、何も食べませんでした。タクシイで会社へいきました。１０時ぐらいおなかがすきました。こっそりとしょくどへいきました。うによくしゃちょにあいませんでした。毎晩はやくわたほうがいいです。

Haha... just to write these few sentences, took me about an hour... damn it, I'm so dead for next week's test...

Susan Boyle does it again

Remember that I blogged about this wonderful woman who came onto Britian's got talent and totally blew everyone into orgasms, spurting a mess of applause around the world. Well she's back on the 2nd round and delivered another stunning performance. This time its the song Memory from the musical Cats. But I must say that she didn't do as well this round as compared to the first, I thought she started the first few notes pretty shaky. But nonetheless, she managed to own the song as she continued on with the song. She is already through to the next round, so we will get to see more of her in the coming weeks. You go gal.

Again they have taken down the embedded link to the vid, so here's the website, just copy and paste the url into the address line.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7Ayk9G7-sc

Changes to the blog

I was browsing through the www, when I came across some blog templates. Some of them really look good. One of them is the one shown below. So I was thinking, hey why don't I change the outlook of my blog to make it more appealing. But there is one big problem. Being the bimbo me, I really have no idea how to put the template here. Remember that it took me so long before I actually realise how to put up youtube vids here. Well I think it'll be quite some time before I know how to do this template thingy. But if any of you do know how its done, please tell me. Thanks guys.

American Idol Season 8

Kris Allen is the latest American Idol winner! I've missed a large part of this season, mainly because I have classes every wednesday. So I really didn't feel much about the entire season. But I do remember Kris quite well. In fact throughout the entire season, I can only remember 3 contestants this season. Kris Allen, Adam Lambart and that Gokey guy. The rest were pretty much forgettable for me. But I must say that Kris did not look like an Idol winner at all when I first saw him on the show. Well good luck to Kris, hopefully he'll also make it big like some of the other Idol Alumni.

Ninja Warrior

I am actually in love with this show. Its all about body power (erm maybe its like 90% arm power), I really do not know how these people mange to get through the obsticles, it is super duper difficult. And some of the contestants are already in their lates 30s, some even 40s and later than that, and they are still able to keep their bodies that lean, in that kind of shape. I hope when I'm their, I will also still look that good. Even right now, being 10~20yrs younger, my physique is no where near all of them.

Maybe its because I'm not homophobic at all, so I really think its ok for guys to admire at other guy's bodies. To me its the same as girls looking at other girls and commenting, "wah, pretty girl" or "that girl's body very nice". Girls looking at girls are a common thing, but if a guy says, "wow that guy has a great body", many people's first reaction would be - gay. I don't know if I'm part of the minority of straights out there who think this way, but to me, admiring at another guy's body is prefectly find. They also act as a motivation for me to work harder on my body (come to think of I really do need some motivation now to get back into shape). So everyone, we should really open up our minds and stop being an ass thinking that every guy who looks at another guy is gay, come on get a life. See the real world.

This is damn funny...

Japanese Library Gameshow

This is some Japanese gameshow that takes place in the library. Its damn stupid, really didn't know why I enjoyed it so much previously, haha. Well, its still entertaining but just a little dumb... lol. Japanese can really think of anything for their gameshows.

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

This is a pretty late recommendation, but I totally love this song. Read from youtube that the official MTV has been taken down because of copyright issues. Well I got another live version that is also pretty good. Jason Mraz just rox!

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my best test
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'ma saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't hesitate
No more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is yours!

日本語Exams

Just realised that my 日本語 Exams are coming up very very soon. Hahaha. And I am totally not prepared at all... And from the looks of it I'm gonna flunk this paper, omg what am I going to do... I've already engaged my classmate next week to help give me a crash course. Actually I am not totally lost in the language. I mean I do understand what the 先生is teaching at each lesson. But I just cannot remember them the following week. So my understanding is only for that lesson. This is bad man. So what I need is really a refresher course and to really get the particles and forms into my head. Well I just hope that the crash course will work and get me through this paper. ｼﾝﾛﾝさんがんばってね。

Mango Galore

As mentioned earlier, I went over to my uncle's place to pluck some mangoes, and boy did we get mangoes. Haha. In total I think we got about 80 mangoes, in all sizes. And that is only this week, they had already started last week. I heard that they got like 73 mangoes. So that means that in all, there were over 150 mangoes, wow. But in general, the mangoes were pretty big. They are not very ripe yet, so we will still have to keep them for a week or so to ripen the mangos first before we can indulge in our mango feast. And the highlight of the day - the freaking horny dog [Max] kept humping my hand. Haha. There were so many mangos that each family could take about 20 each, haha. Had a real great time earlier with my crazy family.