Contract

My contract officially ends on Monday, and till now I still have yet to see a new contract. I've actually told Agnes about it, and she was saying that she had already told Felicia about it, and how come I still do not know about it. Come on lah, where got people only give me contract on last day, definately have to give me time to look through the contract and decide whether to sign a not ma. Though we are connected by family relations, but I still need to look at the terms and conditions right.

Last night I was at Lunar with some of my colleagues to celebrate Mad's birthday, as usual we had a blast, and a very drunk night. Haha. Before that I was at Jeremy and Jemi's wedding. It was the first time I went for an outdoor wedding (actually I have been to one at Alkaff [donno how to spell] Mansion, but that was really eons ago). Nice concept, and beautiful deco. But I think there are areas that can be improved a lot. Such as the lighting, some bugs plan (to rid of the bugs), more tables (its the first time I attend to a wedding eating my food at a corner), better wine. But I must admit that for a buffet, the quality of the food was really quite good. The wedding was held at Hort park, it was also the first time I was at Hort park. Nice place, a bit hot at night. Overall I still think that the concept is very nice, but it may not go down well with the older crowd. I mean this is also the first time I went for a wedding that ends before 10. In fact it probably ended as early as a quater after 9. And the whole thing is def very different from the conventional weddings. My bro is going to do this outdoor thingy for his wedding as well. I don't know how he wants to do it, just hope he does a good job. Actually I think he should try to combine the 2. It'll probably be much better. Also he doesn't want to invite too many people, wants to keep it a small affair. But seriously, I just hope he gives the older crowd like my Ah Ma some face. He said that he doesn't want to invite those that are not very close and all that, but there are some people that you may not know, but you just have to invite because they are your grandma's some relative. Aiya, I just hope he gives more thought into this. I don't want this to cause people to talk behind our family's back.

Sales talk

STOP.... and I mean STOP telling me that I'm giving sales talk to you. Because if I can give good sales talk, my sales would be much better than what it is now. If there is one thing that I cannot stand in office is when my boss keep telling me that I'm giving them sales talk. Its like telling them that I am trying to smoke my way through everything. Here I am explaining myself, and there you keep insinuating that I'm bluffing my way through. Its not like I want to tell you the same thing next week, but it really is the case. Fuck man, irritating. And another question I totally hate is what are you going to do to bring up your sales. I mean what can I do, there are only a few ways what, of course I can only keep telling you the same thing. I can only keep visiting my customers, asking if there are anything else I can provide. If they don't give me the PO there is nothing I can do right. This door closed, I look for another door, from other buyers. Of course I also look for new customers as well. But that about all I can do right. Sianz.

Its the end

I'm not really feeling my best this weekend. Having a very bad headache and feeling really groggy the whole day. In office now staring at the computer screen but my head is fading away. Its like Madonna is dancing in my head to the tune of her latest single - celebration. And she doesn't seem to be stopping any time soon. Just reached office, on a Monday... definately need some time to start my engine, so I thought I'll update my very neglected blog, haha. Yes, I know I have not been updating as often as before, forgive me blog.

Times passes by so quicky, in just what seems like a while, I've already graduated from University for more than a year already. I'm already into my second job, and I've been (trying to) climb the corporate ladder for close to a year already. Everything seems to be happening so fast. Initially, you don't feel the speed of time going by, but when you stop to think about it, you will really find that we are getting old really really fast.

Being in my job for slightly more than 6 months. In fact, my contact with this company should be up by this week. I still have no indication of the management's decision to whether they will continue with another contract, or will they give me a permanent job or will they just thank me for my past efforts. Yes I know this is my Uncle's company, and that there should not be any issue with a permanent position. Seriously, a part of me does not want to leave. Mainly because I feel that I have yet to achieve what I can here, and I am very confident that I can contribute much more if given more time. I want to leave on a high, especially so when relationships are involved in this very complicated office. There is also so much for me to learn, there are so many things that I still do not know. And the bes part about this company is that they are all so willing to share their experience with me. But there is also a part of me that seriously hope that he will tell me that maybe its better for me to look for green pastures elsewhere because I might suit other jobs better. A big part of me really wants to leave too. I've played my relationship cards very close to my heart, and sometimes its difficult and very sressful. There are some things that I find difficult to speak up about, For instance, my pay, my contract (as said earlier I have 1 week left on my contract, so far no one has approached me to talk about a new contract, and I really don't know how to open up about this), additional benefits. The extra stress and restrictions is seriously killing me. I can only wait and see what happens now.

Ok, as I'm looking at this screen, I also seeing some stars as well. My mind is in a frenzy, I cannot really think straight, haiz.... still have lessons tonight, and my Jap test is coming up this wed! I'm so dead... Hopefully I'll be able to last through today in my current condition.

$40, 1 medal and a whole body full of pain

Completed my first AHM last Sunday, 21km! Yippie. The things we go through to attain this sense of achievement and pride. Had to pay $40+ for the registration (erm, actually my bro paid for it, I went for it in his place), after the completetion we get this medal to indicate that we made it, and after it all, we are left with smiles, a sense of pride and also a whole body full of pains and aches. Haha.

But I think the most apt way to describe this experience, is that these marathons are like sex. After the first time, you do feel like you want to do it again, and again and again. It is addictive. You want to better your previous score, you want to train for it and make sure you do better next time.

Today I can really feel the aftermath of the entire process. Weak and aching legs, back ache, whole body feeling a little wobbly. Hahaha. But I thin I did pretty decently yesterday. I don't know my exact timing yet, have to wait a few days before we can check our timing online. But it should be roughly 1hr 50mins. Its really inspirational, and I do want to try out another race soon. Will have to resume training soon, but first, let me rest and cultivate my body back to full health. Tired. Think I'm gonna skip my lesson and go back early today. Really too tired to go, even if I went for my lessons, I would not be able to absorb anything at all, no point. Haiz, anothe 10 mins to go.... time goes by, so slowly, time goes by, so slowly....

Monday in Aug

I think I've said this countless times already... Mondays are just not meant for working... sianz. No matter how much you have rested during the weekend, you are still tired on Monday and you just don't feel like starting work on Monday. Totally can feel the Monday Blues in me now. I had a very uneventful weekend. Practically slept through the entire weekend, other than some occassional fun outside, which probably lasted less than 3 hrs, nothing much happened. Boringz.....