June Babies

Just celebrated Stanley's Birthday last week. We went over to a high class rest at Craig St for dinner at some Italian rest called Pasta Bravo. So you see, we are now into the fine dining era, haha. Well I just realised that there are quite a few June babies among the people I know. My bro and Mum are all June babies, then there's Stanley, Marvin and Johnathan. There are probably more, just that I can't remember at the moment. Well anyway back to Pasta Brava, the place was really good. The ambience was excellent and the food was pretty good. I had the squid ink pasta, I swear that it really taste much better than it looks. When it came, it didn't look that appitising, it was like all black. You seriously cannot differentiate between the spag and the prawns, but put the spag into your mouth and you are in heaven, hahaha. The deserts were heavenly, they had really good tiramisu, I had this choc cake, it was really really really good. The cake was warm and when you cut into the cake, the choc just flows out of the cake. Oh man, that was really good. The portions didn't look like alot, but it was really filling.

www.pastabrava.com.sg

Another celebration was of course with my family, I can't remember if I've blogged about it already, but I thought I'll just briefly blog about that super filling experience. I treated my family to Sakura international buffet at Downtown East. The buffet spread was actually pretty good, in that small area there was quite a lot of food. The quality of the food was passable, it wasn't great food, but it was still above average. Had a great time that night muching down all the food. I felt so guilty the next day because I was so stuffed that I did not even feel hungry at all the next day.

The famous bird drawing by who else - Mr Van Goh (aka Goh CY). One of the most interesting part of the rest is that they provide everyone with chalks and you are free to draw on the table (which is covered with paper). So when you enter the rest, you can actually some of the drawings that the customers had left behind hanging on the walls, pretty cool huh!

Targets

I now have less than 2 weeks to move my sales up to meet this month's target. I have absolutely no idea how I'm gonna do it. Hopefully the people I meet will help. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh

Unlimited wants

There are so many things that I want in my life, but with limited resources and capability its really gonna be real difficult to achieve all of them. Lets not even talk about all of them, it is already super difficult to realise 70% of them. I know I am materialistic, I know there are a number of wants that are not really required, I know that some of these wants are totally useless, but thats life, and thats what makes life so interesting...

I want more money!!! My pay is just far too low

I want a car

I want a house

I want to buy new clothes

I want a new bag

I want less stress

I want to do well in my work

I want more sleep

I want to be in a job that I really really like

I want to open my own company/shop

I want to travel

I want to master Japanese

I want to improve my singing

I want learn things fast

I want to lead a happy and fulfilling life

I want to be able to make the people around me happy

I want to be able to provide for my family

I want to spend more time with my family

and the list just keeps going on and on and on...
When will I be able to achieve all of them

Monday blues

You know the dreading feeling of dragging yourself to work every monday, and even in office your engine don't seem to be starting fast enough, well there is a term for this and its commonly known as Monday blues. This is a very normal feeling, there is absolutely nothing wrong with having this feeling because most, if not all, people will suffer from it at some point of time in their career.

But having said that, the situation gets serious when you dread going to work on Monday, and Tuesday, and Wednesday, and Thursday and Friday as well. You feel totally stressed out and can't wait for the next big holiday, only to realise that you are already out of school, and there is no such thing as a big break anymore. Goodbye to month long June holidays, farewell to frosty more-than-30-days December breaks; and hello to short weekend breaks and occasional long weekends. Now, this is not healthy. Because it is a tell tale sign that you don't really like what you are doing. You have to pull out all the energy in you at work and the only time when you are energetic is after work. You have so many deallines and targets to meet but you have totally no idea how to achieve them and you feel as lost as the survivors in the hit drama 'Lost' and as helpless as a naked man stranded on some pacific island waiting to be part of some ritual before being eaten raw by the tribal carnivores.

And that is exactly how I am feeling now. I am totally lost at work, I have no idea what I can do, and I am feeling pretty stressed out. This is all deep inside me, on the outside I may seem all happy-go-lucky, but I'm really feeling all fucked up inside. And the fact that I'm working for my uncle really hammers the nail onto the coffin. I've said this before, that I don't like working for my relative and this is the exact reason why. I know that I will have this kind of pressure to do extra well in my job, and I really cannot allow any room for failure. And now that I've hit some stones along the way, and I don't see success any where near, it seems to me that I am becoming a liability in office. And I hate that. Already I hate to be a liability in any office, and its much worse when the office belongs to someone so close to you. I've been told that I am still some distance from my target this month, but I don't know what I can do to push up the sales. I mean I can aproach my customers to talk to them about the product and hope they will buy stuff. I can't possibly put them at knief point and force them to buy correct? And the worst part of it are all the issues that come with the sales. Urgent orders, order cancellations, earlier lead time, some of the time line that they give us are simply impossible to meet. Just this morning, my CS told me to leave the commitment of delivery to her because I gave an earlier date of delivery, and she told me that we will need to rush out the part and we should have buffered another week instead. Aiya, I already buffer 1 week already. And anyway its only 1 reel of good, how long do you want to take to check the part. Customer needs the part urgently, there is no reason why I can't expedite the part to them. And then it was the target news. My supervisor told me that for this month my sales is only $15k so far, and she wants me to hit at least 50k at the end of the month. And before I can even sit down to think of how I can achieve this target, news number 3 comes in when another colleague comes over to ask me why I am sitting on a case. Because the customer needs the part urgently we have to try to pull in for them, and also because she had helped to secure this deal for me. In fact she did everything for me in the deal, and all I needed to do was to followup. So I was told off by her becuase she thinks that I am sitting on the case and not doing anything. But I have so much on my mind. Arghhhh..... I really need some time out, and sometimes I am crying inside of me. The body wants to continue but the soul is weak, very very weak now. Oh god, please give me some indication of what I should do. Haiz.

Superstar

Last weekend was my debut concert at Kovan Heartland mall. Its the first time I sang on stage in front of sooooo many people. OMG. I was realy nervous. When I started the song, I fumbled a little before picking up the rest of the song. I'm supposed to be on the wait list, but I doubt I'll make it through lah. I got 1 green and 3 orange cards, so that means that I have wait. WH who asked me to join was telling me that he was so disappointed in me because I was so much better when we went KTV and that I was far from my usual standard. Haha. It was really pretty scary you know. But I must say that it was really fun, no regrets. If there's another chance I might just do this all over again. Though the nerves were really terrible. Hahaha. I was so worried that I might forget the lyrics. Well good luck all those who made it thorough, work hard and don't let me catch up with you, wahahaha.

Busy Bee

Been really busy these days. I have so much on my mind, I have so much to do, there is hardly any time to take a break. I find that I really have some problems with time management and organization. My work is in a mess and I have tons of stuff uncleared. What the fuck am I gonna do!!!

I just went through my email today to write down everything that I still have to do, and everything that is still pending, and oh my god, I filled an entire page of my notebook. Haiz, I really need to organize myself or I will really fail in my job. Right now everything is half done, so I must really try to clear as much as possible. But in office I usually have this mental block that prevents me from achieving the fullest of my time. It is always till near the end of the day that I get most effective, and most of the work done. And at that time, I will feel the press of time and start to worry about not finishing my work. I'm like so fucked now.

Buck up bitch!

林峰 泳儿 - 明天以后

I have been looking for this song, finally found out the name of the song. Yippie! This is a really great song man... Hope you'll enjoy it as much myself. Its by Lin Feng and Yong Er. Lin Feng has quite a few nice songs in his album, think I need to do some research on his songs, hee.