Relax.... Enjoy

There is always this thing about chalets. They tend to be super tiring, excessively sleepless, and full of unhealthy food... not to mention the extra smoke from those box of 20s. But this time, it was much more relax. And I'm not complaining, haha. I slept through the chalet, I think I fell asleep at 2, all the way till the next morning. Of course the guys were super noisy (that includes my gal), playing mahjong through the night till about 6. Man, I think I'm getting old, cannot take late nights already. And did I mention about the start of my gym sessions. I started gymming last week, concentrating on my biceps. After working out, my hands were super numb, and I could not straighten out my arms for the next 3 days. So last wek I thought that I will go easy on my arms, and focus on my abs, to train those packs out. OMG, now I've been having the stomach feeling for the last 3 days, fuck lah, too long never gym already. Do a little bit, whole body ache. Haha. I guess age is catching up, and it is catching up real fast....

Eclipse 2009

There is an eclipse going on now in various parts of the world. Was chatting with my supplier in Wuhan, she was telling me that the sky is slowly getting dark now, and total eclipse will be around 9.53. Wow, its like super cool lor.... So right now the sun is looking like a sickle, haha. Wish I was there to witness this, hmmmm.

There are also rumours that this is going to be the end of the world, together with the eclipse will come tsunamis and earthquakes... Well from the looks of things, I'm still going to be around tomorrow, hahaha. I've been telling my baby to bring her float to office and oxygen tank, hahaha. Well she's working on an island, so high risk ma... And I think she's going to kill me for it. lol.

Well back to the eclipse, its said to be the longest eclipse in the 21st century. Okie I shan't go into details of the whole foray, for more information please google online, well for your ease of reference, I've included the wiki link for this eclipse here.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solar_eclipse_of_July_22,_2009

Happy Saturday, Sad Sunday

It was a pretty happy Saturday for me. On Friday night I went to meet an internet friend. We've been chatting online for sometime and thought that we should meet up sometime. So last friday we met to go clubbing. It was pretty cool though we didn't talk too much. I don't really talk well in front of people I'm not familar with, but it was still ok, I guess the loud music in the club and the alcohol really did help to break the ice, haha. Well we had great fun that night. I just hope that he wasn't disappointed when he saw me in real life. I mean on cam and in real life is pretty different. And luckily I didn't have training this Saturday, so the late night wasn't a big problem.

After I woke up on Saturday, I on my lappie and it gave me really good news. I got a new order from my customer. A 7k order!!! Wahaha.... Finally some results of my customer visits. Although my overall result is still way behind my other colleagues, but some of it is coming back, it does give me some motivation to work harder to hit that darn target of mine. Haiz, another 35k more to go, only less than 2 weeks. Sianz....

Then when I say sad Sunday, I mean its because its Sunday.... Which means there is work tomorrow, damn it. There goes another weekend. Will have to be in JB tomorrow for customer visit.

New order!!!!

Yeah!!! I just go some new orders this week. And its the result of my hard sell and working with customer to secure he orders and allocation. So happy, hopefully I can secure a few more of such deals to push up my sales, haha. Good start, though its still not enough to hit my target this month. Kambatte ne.

Maybe its better to keep things the way they were

Sometimes I am wondering, maybe it would be better if we keep things as they were and no try to move things onto the next level. Maybe I am not suitable to be with someone. And maybe I should just stay single all my life.

Those who know me well enough, do know that I am sort of together with a girl now, well is complicated. Till not she doesn't want to commit to the relationship, after like 3-4 mths. Initially, the first time I asked her was through sms (yes, I know its not the most romantic way), but actually it was not really asking her to be my girlfriend, that was more of asking if I stood a chance. So came along the official sms (hahaha), to ask her, and she said no. Because she said that sms is insincere, and that she was unsure about me and all. Ok, point taken. So we continue our ambigious relationship for awhile more, with all my friends asking if we are actually 'together'. A lot of times I am lost for words to tell them, I can only say 'its complicated'. Well its been complicated for so long now, so last week when we met I asked her again, it was more romantic this time, we were at West Coast Beach at night, sitting on the benches and I asked her again to be my girlfriend. And she said 'no' again. Ok, all confused again we went home after that. The next day she sms me to tell me,"I said no not because I don't like you, I don't want you to think that I am still choosing between others, in case you think that way. But I am not sure what kind of bf you will be. Sometimes you can mia during the weekdays, and only exist on the weekends. I don't want to choose so long and in the end choose someone who don't care for me" (something along that line, I can't rem the exact words). Ok, now then... I know that I don'y meet her every other day, but thats because I have a very tight schedule during the weekdays. I have Jap classes on Mondays and Wednesdays nights. Tuesday evenings are for my jogging session (by the way, I have asked her if she wants to join me, and I ca drive her back afterwards, she don't want). Thursday night is the only other night that is free, which I leave for my grandma most of the time, because sometimes I really don't have time to go down to visit her, so at least I still have a day for her. So Fridays and Saturdays are kept for her, but Saturday nights are sometimes also friends drinking days, but I do bring her along. Sunday is generally family day, either that or its JB day. Neither do I sms her everyday, or call her everyday. But seriously people who know me, do know that I do not like to call other people (I love receiving calls though). That is why, all the while my phone bill always shows my incoming more than 10x my outgoing. Thats the way I am, its a habit difficult to change. To once in a while sms someone to ask them what they are doing, or just to say I miss you. This is just not my style. Ok, nevermind, for the sake of those who like this I told myself that I will send her some sms every now and then. So that she will know that I am available during the weekdays as well. And to make my presence felt and let her know that I care for her. So while I was waiting for my class to start on Monday night, I thought that I would sms her to ask her how's her day, whether she has reached home already and all that. And her reply,"Busy day, genuinely busy. R u trying hard not to appear mia huh? lol". Now, when I saw this sms I was actually a little pissed. But being genetleman, I let it go and continued to reply her sms jokingly. So the next day I thought that I will not sms her, else later she thinks that I am trying again. But in the end I still gave in. After my jog, I sms her to ask her if she's at home, and to tell her that I had to meet my supplier afterwards. And she replied:"Yup, I just reached home. My poor darling still have to collect stuff, but I'm happy when you have to do extra stuff... lol.. p/s: my dear is in the 2nd day of trying hard not to appear mia to me." Okie, I really couldn't care less, I just replied that I had to take some samples to pass to customer the next day. Didn't even bother to explain anything. I mean, come on lah, sometimes its pretty irritating to see that your efforts are not recognised whether its at work or for other stuff. I can take sarcasm , we can suan each other. But we should know when we are serious when we are not. So is she implying that my sms are too fake, don't sound sincere enough.

So sometimes I really don't know what I should do, should I continue or just let go. When I don't sms or call, she says that I mia from her life, and when I do, she says that the sms are very fake. So what do you want. We have been in this complicated relationship for 3-4 mths and I think its about time to draw up a fullstop. Whether or not we should continue with this. I don't see a point if we keep delaying the whole issue. Is she unsure of me or is she unsure of herself, I don't know. Haiz, going by my past practices (on other issues), at most I will give it another shot, if after doing everything and there doesn't seem to be light at the end of the tunnel, then just drop, and get on with life.

Sex for a week boost sperm quality

I cam across this pretty interesting article recently. And it tells us all, esp those daddy wannabes to have sex everyday 1 week before she ovulates (or at least jerk off every now and then for that week) because it has been noticed that this improves the quality of the sperm! Wow, what a discovery, hahaha. Well here's the article from yahoo:

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090630/tts-health-fertility-sex-c1b2fc3.html

PARIS (AFP) - - Men seeking to become a dad should have sex each day, or ejaculate daily, for a week before their partner ovulates in order to maximise sperm quality, according to a study presented on Tuesday.

Australian fertility specialist David Greening recruited 118 men whose sperm had a higher-than-normal level of DNA damage.

Before the test, on average 34 percent of the group's sperm was rated as damaged, meaning that it was classified as "poor" in quality. Among individuals, this ranged from 15 percent to 98 percent.

The men were asked to ejaculate daily for seven days, but were not given any drugs or told to make any changes to lifestyle.

After seven days, their sperm was examined again.

The average of damaged sperm fell to 26 percent, placing it in the category of "fair" in quality.

Fourth-fifths of the men saw an increase in sperm quality, and many of them moved into the "good" range and out of the "poor" or "fair" categories.

However, one-fifth saw a decline in sperm quality.

Greening, an obstetrician and endrocrinologist at Sydney IVF, an Australian company that carries out assisted reproduction, said the improvements were "substantial and statistically highly significant."

Daily ejaculation not only boosted sperm quality for most of the men, it also helped sperm motility -- another big factor in successful fertilisation -- even though volumes of semen declined, he said.

Greening presented his findings at a conference in Amsterdam of the European Society of Human Reproduction and Embryology (ESHRE), which provided details in a press release.

The research did not investigate whether the improvement in sperm quality led to better pregnancy rates. But previous work has shown that sperm that is less damaged and more mobile has a better chance of leading to a healthy baby.

"These results may mean that men player a greater role in fertility than previously suspected, and that ejaculatory frequency is important for improving sperm quality," said Greening.

Why this is so is unclear.

Greening said he suspected that the longer sperm stays in the testicular ducts, the greater its exposure to rogue oxygen molecules that damage cells.

His advice to couples would be to have sex, or to ejaculate, daily in the runup to ovulation or to sperm donation for in-vitro fertilisation (IVF).

"The optimal number of days of ejaculation might be more or less seven days, but a week seems manageable and favourable," he said.

"It seems safe to conclude that couples with relatively normal semen parameters should have sex daily for up to a week before ovulation date."

Useful or Useless

After a week of H1N1 wannabe scare, I'm now fully back to work, erm actually I've already returned to work last Friday. And my boss was so nice to me throughout this tough period that I was going through. In my sickness, pain and agnoy, my boss helped to bring my laptop to my home so that I can work from home when I was on MC, now isn't that nice. And when I returned on Friday, the first thing that my boss told me was a warm welcome back message," Just to let you know, Kelvin has hit 50k this month already." Ah, it really made me feel so good to return to work doesn't it.

And today, all I wanted to do was to ask her about some stuff about work and she had to remind me again that I have to do everything as a sales. And that I must have no more excuses because what we can recognise is results, and results only. Wow, feel the love.

From the bottom of my heart, I really hate this feeling. I mean I'm not trying to find excuses for having low sales. But I just don't like the idea that all the ground work that I am doing is not being recognised. I know that at the end of the day we need to deliver, but to me, that is no reason to undermine the work that I have done so far. I don't know what made her think that the CS is doing enough for her job now, because it seems to me that she is not that great in her work, especially so when she's the head of the CS team. During meetings, she can hardly speak up, or explain the work flow of what her team needs to be doing. And after being in this company for so much longer than I have, she doesn't have the contacts or relationships to the customers that she is handling at all. Come on, she's doing customer service! And now you are telling me that these are the information that I should have, and that its ok if CS don't know, but sales MUST know. I don't understand why a customer service officer, a person who is supposed to be in constant contact with the customer as much as the sales personal, to provide service to the customer, can don't know the customer's contact details, and you can still tell me its perfectly fine, but as a sales I cannot don't know, so even if the CS tell you that she doesn't know, you have to find out through the one thousand and one ways. But seriously, why didn't the CS find out about these nitty gritty details earlier?!? So now I'm the only one being labelled as not doing enough for my job.

As I've said, I can def feel the love.

Formula Drift Singapore

For these 2 days I am part of the Formula Drift Singapore, wahahaha. I got free tix to enter the place from Alvin because his company is one of the sponsors of the event and that they have a booth selling some car wash stuff, so I'm there on the pretext as an employee, but actually taking the chance to watch the the drift, hahaha. But I was doing my job ok, I did sell the stuff. Yesterday was super hot, I almost couldn't take it, so today I'm taking precautions, I've bought drinks and I've prepared ice for the drinks, haha. Now I'm all ready to go, waiting for Alvin to come and fetch me. That basket told me he'll be here at 8, well look at the time now... Ass made me wake up so early.